Thursday, September 2, 2010

For real this time

I know that MANY, MANY times I have stated something about my weight and exercise. Even on this blog. And many times, I have started to eat better and get to moving. But, I always stop after a couple of weeks.
With this weekend conference coming up (Simply Free), I have been spending more time with Jesus and in the Word. Well, yesterday was a day of pure conviction for me. I know that I need to do something about my weight or it may literally kill me. Maybe not today, but one day. During my quiet time, God pointed out to me the things about my weight that I struggle the most with. I have hid behind my weight for the past 15 years. 15 years!!! I want to be smaller and feel better. Everytime I start to lose any weight and people comment about it, I quit. I'm scared of the "attention" that losing weight will bring. I've said for a long time that the husband that God has for me has to love me for me, big and all. If God loves me like this, then a man could too, right? Well, it's hard to expect someone else to love you if you can't honestly love yourself. So I have committed to God, myself, and now you (all 3 of you). I have going to eat better and start exercising more. I know that I can do it. It has helped that both yesterday and today, as I was getting ready to walk, I texted my friend and then when I was done, I told her how far I walked. She is very encouraging even 4 hrs away. I can't do this alone. Because alone, I fail. I know. Been there done that. So I am going to make it a point to blog and be honest about it a couple of time a week. I will not be weighing myself everyday, maybe not even every week. I will keep you posted on the progress though.
Yesterday I stepped foot in my gym for the first time in over a year. They had even changed the system around. Who pays for something every month and doesn't use it? Well, me.
So yesterday I walked 2 miles and did laps at the pool for 45 min. Gotta start somewhere. Today I have walked 1 1/2 miles so far. I will walk again later tonight, once I get home. So here is to every woman (and man) who are trying to do better.
Please pray for me as I start this journey (again).
In the mornings, I take Tay in the stroller to walk. He LOVES it. It's harder and challenges me more.
The sweat is a good thing, right. I try to remind myself of that.



  1. Amen sister! You go girl. I am so proud of you! Text me if you ever need any encouragement, because I know how hard it can be! You CAN DO IT!

  2. you can do it! i'll do it along side you (2000 miles away! LOL). did you text kelly? when you wrote that, that is who i immediately thought of ;)