Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Missing out

There have been lots of changes happening in my life at the moment. Its all keeping me busy. Busy enough to where I seem to put of blogging. But I've missed it so much. I've felt like this is my outlet. To have a place of my own. A place to remember what life is like right now. To one day look back and see how the changes new seasons bring me to in life. I know that need to catch up the past several months. And I will begin to work on it. One day.... For now know that I'm missing this vital part of my life. I'm trying to adapt to a new normal. Again. As if anything about my life is normal. But hey, I'm giving it a shot. Hopefully I won't be gone for too long this time.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Winners!!

So you know how I always tell you I'm behind in posting on here. Well, I am. But.... here's the moment several of you have waited on: the winners of Big Mama's book Sparkly Green Earrings. Congrats to Katy and Angie! If you ladies would please email me your shipping information, I will get those books and earrings in the mail as quickly as I can. Thanks to all who entered.

Friday, March 1, 2013

Sparkly Green Earrings-GIVEAWAY

If you are an avid blog reader like I am, you've probably heard of Big Mama. She, her husband, and daughter live in Texas. She's a "regular" stay at home mom who happens to be on the New York Times best seller list at the moment. She's written the book Sparkly Green Earrings. Even though we've never met (which I dream of doing one day), I'm incredibly proud of and for her. When I found out she had wrote a book, I immediately put it on my wish list for my Nook. I'm so excited that I did.

Y'all, I read the book in just a few short hours. It's that good. Melanie is able to convey the true aspects of motherhood through out the book. Although I haven't given birth to any children, I found myself through the pages. As a nanny, I found myself laughing out loud at some truths she shares, because it's a "been there, done that" situation. Melanie offers a delightful and completely relateable glimpse into the pleasure of raising a child. Full of many laughs and moments of tears, this book is by far one of favorites. One sentence that stuck out with me the most is "Sometimes the best families are the one God builds using unexpected pieces of our hearts." There is such wisdom and truth in that one statement for me.

I love and enjoy this book so much that I'm giving away two copies along with some fabulous green earrings to two of you readers. Just leave a comment under this post and on March 10th I will announce the winners. I would love to hear a memorable moment in motherhood or dealing with children in your life.
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Sunday, February 24, 2013

Have you ever....

Ever had those days were nothing seemed to go right? Or the day when everything seemed out of place? Maybe the day when your to do list was longer than the time you have to accomplish it? Perhaps even a day when the comfort of your bed seemed to hold more promise than getting up and tackling the day. When you have more questions that answers. When it feels as though even breathing take too much effort. When the darkness seems to speak louder than the light.
If not, you won't understand where I've been the last few weeks. 

I can't sugar coat the darkness I've found myself sinking into. It's a difficult place. I went through a severe depression a few years ago. And recently I found myself feeling the way I was back then. Not as bad. And this time around I recognized some symptoms. It's no secret that I have a therapist I see on a regular basis. She can get to the very heart of the matter like no one else in my life. I trust her. So when she brought up the subject of maybe needing to add some medication back into my life (I have been off meds for about 4 1/2 years), I couldn't overlook the possibility. Because of what I've been through before, I knew that I wanted to begin dealing with this before it got out of hand. So once again, I find myself at the pharmacy. And it's ok.

I know that many people choose not to cover the topic of depression in a public venue, but this is my life. I'm just being honest. I'm aware that I'm not the only person in this world that battles with depression. It occurs more often that we care to admit. Being equipped with meds and a great therapist that has my back, I have reason to believe that my days won't be this dark for long. In reality, things are looking up at this point. It's been a few weeks since starting the meds and increasing my appointments. Amazing what happens when you have the right resources for you. I'm not saying that everyone who is depressed needs meds or even a therapist. It's what works for me. I'm working on it. One matter at a time, even though I try to cram several things together.

I haven't been in the right frame of mind lately to blog. Or even read many blogs. I've missed it. So as I told a blog reader (HI TISH!) this is my week. I'm hoping to get several post caught up and plugged in. What better way to jump back into this with both feet than a giveaway. I'll be announcing a fabulous giveaway on Friday. So come on back y'all.
I honestly can't tell you how grateful I am for this community. Y'all have been so sweet to call, text, tweet, message, or pray for me the past few months and I can't say thanks enough.