Saturday, April 19, 2014

The Waiting

I've celebrated Easter for every year that I have been alive. When I was little, it was more about the candy, egg hunts, and a new dress. After I gave my life to Jesus, it became more intentional to focus on what Christ did for me on the Cross. I would give thanks to God for His redeeming love. I would be thoughtful in my praises. I would eat lunch with my family. In all honesty, it was more of a "regular" day except I was mindful of the Cross more often. Until last year.
Last year, I was in a season of doubt and searching for answers during this time. I had met with a pastor at my church and he encouraged me to come to church weekly every Sunday for the 5 Sundays leading up to Easter. They were teaching a series and he felt that I would benefit from them. I went. I listened. I left. I was unchanged. And it's my fault. I couldn't see past the state I was currently living to allow God beyond the wall I had built.
These past few weeks we have been in a series titled Breaking In. It's how Jesus breaks into our everyday lives. So much of this series has hit me right in the middle of my softened heart. There are small nuggets from these sermons that stay with me throughout the weeks. And I know that God is using these to help break my walls. With Easter coming near, I've been thinking more and more about what it truly means.
So many times in my life I have overlooked the importance of that Saturday between the death and resurrection. Jesus died. He rose again. That's been my outlook for far to long. This year, I'm reminded so much of the waiting on Saturday. While others were waiting, Jesus went to Hades to proclaim His victory over evil and conquering the grave. Jesus wasn't simply lying in a tomb. He wasn't sitting there waiting for the third day. He was doing exactly what God had for Him to do.
I have spent probably 90% of my life waiting. Yet, I don't take into consideration the work that Jesus is doing during my waiting. How often do I rush things in my life because I'm tired of waiting?
This Easter, I reflect on Jesus taking every sin, every shame, every regret, every heartbreak, every one of my wrong doings because HE LOVES ME to hang on a Cross and die. As I celebrate His resurrection so that I may have eternal life, may I also be mindful of the day between.

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Bridal Brunch

One of my co-workers is getting married in May. She is the sweetest person. We hosted a bridal brunch for our shift. It was a lot of fun. I love being able to get together with friends outside of work. We are a family. We had food and Brittany got a few things for the honeymoon :)
This cutie joined us 
Breanna making french toast 
Casey looking at Breanna's guestbook, Ashley looked just in time 
He wanted to open the gifts 
so good 
isn't she gorgeous  
how many does it take to open a simple gift 
Brittany and Ashley 
Casey and Wesley 
Cindy and Brittany 
Brittany and Casey 
Jametra and Brittany 
Hannah and Brittany 
Brittany and I  
Breanna and Brittany 
trying to get W to take a picture 
Jametra and I 
still won't cooperate

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Limbo Land

Ever felt as though the pastor was speaking directly to you? One on one? It happens a lot to me actually. But today's sermon went beyond the normal "that was for me". IT WAS JUST FOR ME! The place I've felt so stuck in for a long, long, long time-Limbo Land. Yep, that was the topic of today's great message. To know that I am not alone in my journey is so significant to me. Yet, it's up to me to allow others to walk this with me.
Here are some notes I took:
Heb. 10:19-25
Limbo is a confusing, frustrating, and exhausting place.
We will never live the life Christ intended for us in isolation.
Maybe you are not living in limbo, but someone in your life is.
The thing you need the most will be the furthest away and most difficult to get.
We let things slide because of a lack of energy.
We tend not know where to focus our energy.
We can go boldly because of Grace of God and our Trust in God.
Identity is not in your past or present. It's in your future.
Balance is a lie. If we wait on ideal, we miss the now.
Just because your world is crazy, doesn't mean you are crazy. Crazy people don't know they are crazy.
Live as if tomorrow is here.
The easiest thing for us to let slide is taking care of your soul.
Don't let what you can't do affect what you can do.
If you do not tend to your soul, you lose perspective. And it affects every part of your life.
We let slide how we prioritize our lives.
Getting healthy is never self centered.
We let slide how we use our influence.

The biggest part that spoke to me was about letting the care of my soul slide. For so long now, I have just done what is needed to get by. Just enough. And sometimes not even that much. It's been a struggle for me to allow myself to be fed spiritually over the past year. I've pushed it aside. In one ear and out the other. I know how important this part is in my life. And I'm finally allowing walls to be broken down in order to move forward.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014


I have never actively participated in Lent. I feel this year to give up a few things for 40 days. I know that I will struggle with these. Thus the purpose of giving them up. Over the past few months, several things have become habits and not healthy ones. For the next 40 days, I am saying no to Starbucks, Sweet Tea, Sodas, and Sweets (pie, cake, cookies, ice cream). Pray. Oh, please pray.