I love a new journal and highlighters.
The very first line of the study hit me HARD. "So much of our confusion, our pain, our indecision, and our wrong decisions come because we do not know God." As I thought more about this, I realized that it's so true in my like. How much do I hide in my pain and regret? Instead of relying on God, I keep things hidden.
"When we know God as He really is, there's power in our lives- the ability to stand firm."
"A new beginning- An avenue of ministry- A sense of doing something that has eternal value."
"What you have learned, God intends for you to share."
So often, I wonder if my life has any eternal value. Are the things I am doing here on earth benefiting anyone? How often have a missed an opportunity to share what God has done in my life because I am afraid? I felt the Lord speaking to me that He has not lead me where He would leave me. He truly intended for life to be shared.
And all of this was in the introduction!!!!
While listing my insecurities, fears, and troubles I become overwhelmed by how much I don't allow God to have control in my life. "Why don't we run to the arms of our all-sufficient God?" Most of the time I don't trust Him to handle things the way I want them to go. I've always felt the need to control all aspects in my life. To truly hand over everything to Him scares me. Yet, He is calling me to come out of my comfort zone. To give myself over to Him completely. "You may not understand how your situation could ever bring Him glory, but you can trust in the name of your Lord.(Day 4)
During my prayer, I felt the same word coming to me several time: DELIVERER! God desires to be my Deliverer. From all things.
Knowing with my head and believing in my heart that God fearfully and wonderfully made has been a struggle for me for many, many years. To think that the Creator of the universe would choose to create me in His image is hard to grasp at times. So many times this week, I have come back this sentence:"You are a unique creation of God, one of a kind, created for His glory." For it to told hold in my heart. For it to become ingrained that God had all things planned from the beginning.
"The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous runs into it and is safe." Proverbs 18:10
Again, this week has already been eye-opening for me. Praying for each one of us to be moved and changed as only God can do in our lives.